you only know you love her when you let her go.

I saw your efforts. But, I got a feeling that nothing is going to work out between us.
I have always said no, and i won't change my mind.
I'm not gonna rely on anyone and be independent ( which i alrdy did )
I'm gonna pull thru everything!

you changed, you changed your phone password, you don't allow me to see what's going on with your phone. I'm sure you will have something to hide, and i felt so distant from you nowadays. I'm sure you are talking to a girl, because i saw. there's smtg you didnt want me to see. it might be beyond the limit for someone who has a gf? Maybe I'm correct, you don't love me as much as you claimed that you do. you don't call me at night before you sleep anymore, you don't treat me as well as you did before. Why? must be not good enough right.

sick and tired of thinking, just do wtv you want cos god has a better plan for me. whatever you do, i wont care about it anymore

So, i initially went to meet jessica to ball. But came across an unexpected visit from joshua and 2 of her friends! So i played good today as i perspired a lot. Thankful to the senior players cos they guided me throughout the match, giving me so many opportunities to attack , and their encouragements. I'm quite happy that joshua and jessica as they gave me a lot of advices and acknowledging me as a potential player! I'm gonna work so hard!! Jessica also told me so many things and how to be better! went to eat supper with jess and poh kian. Then Justin came to meet us and we all talked a lot! like my o's and his aspirations. Then Jessica drove me home, while on our way, we talked so much.

" playing different positions in different teams are normal, but we will push you out of your comfort zone, and you will never be in it. Because you will be our guard. "

Thus, i will improve and become wiser every game as a guard, i will learn to play the position well, i will not let you guys down again.

I hope that one day, my love will be enough for you.
Because, you are the one i love the most.
I hope that, despite of all my imperfections and my flaws, you will still be able to accept me for who i am, and love me as much as i love you.
I know that i don't show my love all the times, but i really do.
I really don't know whether you will stay, because you walked away from me. And when you did, that ache in my heart started.
I'm not good enough, i know. But all you really need to know is that i don't know how am i suppose to talk to you, because you faced your back on me. I also don't know whether you will talk to me. But, i suppose not. I'm not going to tell you this in your face, but please stay.

yay i'm gonna take care of caramel rom 11 to 17 nov!! so eggcited~ i hope i know what to do and nothing bad will happen during that period of time. Amen

but as expected, you dont want to talk to me, what can i say? everything will change.

so i started talking to you again, and tbh it felt really good.
but as i felt good, i felt guilty because my feelings got mixed up again.
should i continue or nah.