yay i'm gonna take care of caramel rom 11 to 17 nov!! so eggcited~ i hope i know what to do and nothing bad will happen during that period of time. Amen

but as expected, you dont want to talk to me, what can i say? everything will change.

so i started talking to you again, and tbh it felt really good.
but as i felt good, i felt guilty because my feelings got mixed up again.
should i continue or nah.

Honestly, i can simply know what's going on with one's life through social network. i have no idea why injured must post, emo must post, angry also must post. Where? in every social media you know in your friggin life. Not seeking attention they say, but at the end of the day, they just want others to know what's happening with their life, wanting other people to understand their situations and their stands. But know what, all you will ever get is sympathy. Want other people to pity you? people who are perfectly normal yet begging for sympathy thru social media are the kind of people i despise the most.

I'm often forgotten.

Last seen is all I got.
Why have I tried so hard? I gave my all but it's not enough.
What am I supposed to do?
Holding onto my own fake beliefs because I don't believe that it's going to end.
So don't hold everything against me, for it's not completely my fault.

I'm tired of society,
I'm tired of being scared,
I'm tired of getting wrecked,
I'm tired of loneliness at night,
I'm tired of being selfless,
I'm tired of giving a fuck,
I'm tired of disappointments,
I'm tired of late night thoughts,
So for now, I shall care no more.